i don't need any more *friends*

i lost a lot of my so called friends because of dani waczak today. i thought i could trust her, so i gave her my new 45$ hoodie from hot topic, to alter, 'cause i didn't know it had ICP on it when i bought it. she said she'd cover it up. for more than two weeks she had it, with me leaving on saturday(which is today now) to go back home, she still had it. the only way i got it back, was that my mom threatened her mom with a lawsuit, if she didn't get it back. her mom was actually more civil than dani is, and we found out unfortunalty that she's going through a divorce. just like everything else regarding the hoodie, i didn't know that either. my mom wouldn't have said that then. that was the only way that i got my hoodie back, by doing something like that. and it was the exact same as it was when i gave it to her to alter. luckily it didn't seem that she wore it 'cause it didn't have her body odor in it.

then i find out that rachael and ray knew about it all the time. they were helping her steal it from me. so all the shit that i gave them, the baby book, the reading books, the blanket, the more than 60$ in total i gave them.. the FREE fucking windows XP edition computer that i gave ray, in exchange for some ram, of which he still owes me 40 dollars for the dimm. but i'm not gonna get that back now. cause all i was to them, was a fucking cash cow.. i was being used, and i was too fucking blind to see it. my mom even told me that i'm using up too much of my vacation money on them.. and i said, well, they're like family to me, it's like adin's my own, i want to see them prepared and happy. yeah, and now i'm left out in the dark, cause i was too nice and giving to them.. my friends. so, pretty much for this whole month, all my friends have been lieing to me. hurts kinda. can't believe that my best friend would do this to me after all the things we went through together.. but she's changed.

i called her today, and she said she was going to the races and that she'd be back sometime today.. she said that dani's gonna be dropping off the hoodie at her house, i asked her how she's gonna do that, if no ones there, she said she didn't know.. that was a lie. then she saiad she was going to pick up jake and dani, so dani can bring me my hoodie, that was a lie.. i waited there for twenty mins with my mom, in the front of the apts.. with rachael's and ray white gangster-wanna-be/hooker/and idiot friends staring at us, saying how much drama i'm fucking causing.. we leave, and five mins later, if that, i call back, 'cause i forgot to tell jeff something, and rachael picks up the phone.. i was suprised! rachael, i said, i thought you were gone. she said no, she's come home to change, and that she was gonna leave again. i was going to say let me talk to jeff, but then she hung up. she hung up on me. the girl that pretty much bought whatever rachael wanted, was hung up on.

this is what puts people in those crazy killer moods. this is what causes people to go psycho and kill all the people that have

fucked.
them.
over.

and i was fucked over. it's not always about how they're brought up or mental illnesses that they might have, it's the amount of people that walk all over them.. i'm in a very hateful mood right now. so dani, if you read this, which i hope you do, i hope you have a very unfulfilling life. i hope you fail in everything you do. or seek to do. and i hope you go to hell and you take every last one of your backstabbing buddies along with you. i was made to lose my friends over some jealous bitch that couldn't afford a 45$ sweatshirt and who thought that i would roll over and give it to you. karma's a bitch, don't cry when it comes back and bites you in the ass... though maybe i should thank you for letting me see who were the weak and who are the strong ones in my life.

see you guys in hell.